Modern schooling system instills in children this idea that studying or learning is somehow boring or tedious. It most certainly is not! Go ahead, open a text book read it from front to back, go deep into the subject and enjoy as your brain canvasses new horizones of neural connections. Forming deep understainding of a subject.
Stop asking for permission to learn. You have agency, you have power, you don't need the structure of a classroom to begin to understand.
Learning is a life long process that doesn't start or end at university. Maybe university and the academic path is not for everyone and that is okay.